I see that you do support recovery on your website. I know it is hard, but hang in there. You are not a bad person, and perhaps, if you allow it, let life and love feed you and nourish you. Anorexia nervosa does nothing more than make what is bad, worse. God bless.

Sweety, I adore your website because it is informational & it isn't really pro-ed. even though i kind of am & i understand where your @ i was in rehab a couple weeks/ monthes ago i got released but now if i miss a dr. appointment i have to get put back in. I know you hate the dr.'s & the dr.'s have their own life's to worry about i don't understand why they think it is their job to try to make us do something or belief something that we don't believe we should be treated. & i am right dr.'s shouldn't be able to tell us what we have to do. It is our life & we should be able to live our life how ever we want.

Lodsa Lovies

We will make it throught i just know we will. Because at the end of the day we can wreck their life just as much as they did to us.They will get their don't worry. Karma NEVER forget or FORGIVES!!

Love yas

Sarah

isn't easy speak from ana.my life is  confusing

euphoria he gives place the dread.

dread failure control.

necessary me protect of me

kisses

bbab y

i fell the same anbout the mirror luv ya

I know exactly what you mean...ever feel like everything you know is a lie and the world is spinning but your moving in slow motion? And watching everything around you just fall apart? I just feel like everything I knew and believed is a big lie… and that every one I trusted doesn’t really care and that the worlds crashing and burning and like I’m treading water constantly just to stay alive. And like everyday is the same routine that gets just a little bit harder each time, like you have to wake up and fake a smile just to make it through the day and your eyes may be shining to everyone but no one really sees the light fading because your soul is dying… and no matter how hard you try to stay strong on the outside inside you just crumple till your nothing but an empty shell. Void of emotion and life that you've become this transparent emotion that people look at you but don’t really see you and you become so lost that you don’t even remember who you were to begin with. You just don’t understand why your living, what you live for , who you are like your soul has been taken from you and locked away. You’re annulled alive but at the same time dead. It’s like, you’re not happy starving and you’re not happy eating and you carry your secret like a burden that weights down on you till you just crumple under the weight. Slowly eating away at your soul till there’s nothing left. You’re numb to everything, and then you just stop all together, you feel nothing. Neither happiness nor sadness nor sorrow or numb, just empty. You’re like a shell of the person you once were. And no matter how hard you try to hold everything together it all eventually just shatters; like the cracks in concrete tell us even the strongest of souls will break. You’re so lost and confused. You won’t let your hear believe what anyone tells you, refusing to accept the good. Your heart slowly crumpling taking in the bad, your eyes fade till their abyss seeing only what your heart lets you believe and your heart is so beaten and bruised it cant except your happiness your face show a smile yet your eyes hold nothing; you’re seeing the world but everything is a blur moving too fast to control. You’re helpless, unable to control it forever. Your soul: gone forever. You try so hard to pull the pieces back together but they never fully heal your wounds. Your soul is never again complete and you live your life as normal as possible, slowly wearing down your tortured mind. till your mind and body wear down to the point of nothing and all you have left is the pieces and the smile you fake.

<3 Lily

p.s I adore your site. I'm only 17, though, so I can't joint he forum. I've had anorexia for a year and a half... could I still join it?

Terri... It's Dania... please let us know youre alive... please.